Surely something as beautiful and nearly impossible as what I ask for has been granted to others before.
Surely it is not just me.
Hopefully there's more to this than haggling
because I've never quite been the greatest of negotiators

and if it were, it'd be a bargain I wouldn't want to lose.

If I could only have a word with you,
most likely knowingly freaking you out, I would describe to you in great detail
(not to brag)
how full of
love,
desire,
want,
lust,
will to provide,
will to protect,
the need to own and be owned

this unilateral relationship has become.

And maybe then I'd invite you to join it
if only I weren't so proud
and full of fear.