I'd like to be able to reply.
I do not know what to reply nor where to reply from or in.

Father Figure tells me if I have no control over myself, I have nothing.
I start to see what Father Figure means.
I start to see the gaps between my stability and my structure without that control.
I wish I had that control.
Maybe it's because of that lack of self-control that I feel I've got nothing to offer.
Maybe it's my fault things don't work out.
Things didn't work out... things don't work themselves out.

I'm sorry.
You shouldn't be afraid.
You shouldn't bask in the infinite sorrow of YOUR over analytical mind.
You're in love with your pessimistic view on life... don't be.
You've got nothing to fear or be intimidated by.