You passed it down to me, you swore it'd always remain a sacred memory and that as long as it lied around me I could always remember how we first met.
As I hold it up to my ear I hear the vast and endless nothing that rests beneath the surface. I recall the burning sensation in my nose and my lungs. My arms stretched out over me trying to get a grasp of something over the surface. I tried so hard to make a sound but I had no breath left to scream, I could only try to survive a little longer with what little air I had left. Making my peace with death, my sight went black but eyes were wide open. I was trying to stay awake and conscious but I couldn't. Nothingness surrounded me, I couldn't recall any of my past problems; I couldn't even remember my name. Out of nowhere I felt your arms around me, I wasn't sure of what was happening. I could feel you struggling with my weight across the water, trying to stay afloat. I could hear your worried screams to everyone on the shore. I woke up in pain, my throat hurt like it never had before and my lungs felt heavy with every breath I took. I coughed up water and it all landed on my face making me open my eyes, and there you were, a beautiful creature soaked in sunlight. From forced gratitude I rose my head with what little strength I had and I kissed you.

If only I had known then what our lives would've been like together, I would've used what was left of my life to push and kick you away from me so I could die in peace, never having known or felt the shame of calling myself yours.